My first proper blog entry... this is wayyy overdue (sorry chris =P)
*sighz* anyhows...where to begin? its 1am and i'm still awake trying to finish plannin the training program (result of procrastinating for so long) just about done with planning for the next 2 weeks...its like writing up a menu for the amount of pain you want to put yourself thru - can't make it too slack and at the same time can't make it too xiong or i risk losing the rest of my team =P of course, it'll hafta be a REALLY tough program for all these crazy dudes to quit on me =P
yupz...lately, have begun getting used to routine and have begun running out of things to distract me...which of course allows my mind room to wander to...well...not very pleasant places =( oh wellz... still struggling with this issue of forgiveness =$ i know what i need to do but somehow lack the strength to overcome this =( really sux to be in a place where you can feel hate and hurt and yet, underlying all that, you know you still love someone so so deeply =( haii...
anyhows, i've got other hurts to deal with at the present moment... think i pushed too hard during one of those sets earlier this week and now my shoulder feels like it wants to pop out! scary stuff...but think i'm gonna do a jiansheng - he was tellin me his shoulder hurt sometime last year and so instead of resting and stuff he trained through his injury and made his shoulder stronger to handle larger burdens. thats gonna be me this time ;) yupz...too close to race - can't afford to lose anymore time on unnecessary stoppages like silly shoulder injuries =P
okaez...paddling at 7 which means i need to be up at like 6! which leaves under 5 hours of sleep left =P
*sighz* anyhows...where to begin? its 1am and i'm still awake trying to finish plannin the training program (result of procrastinating for so long) just about done with planning for the next 2 weeks...its like writing up a menu for the amount of pain you want to put yourself thru - can't make it too slack and at the same time can't make it too xiong or i risk losing the rest of my team =P of course, it'll hafta be a REALLY tough program for all these crazy dudes to quit on me =P
yupz...lately, have begun getting used to routine and have begun running out of things to distract me...which of course allows my mind room to wander to...well...not very pleasant places =( oh wellz... still struggling with this issue of forgiveness =$ i know what i need to do but somehow lack the strength to overcome this =( really sux to be in a place where you can feel hate and hurt and yet, underlying all that, you know you still love someone so so deeply =( haii...
anyhows, i've got other hurts to deal with at the present moment... think i pushed too hard during one of those sets earlier this week and now my shoulder feels like it wants to pop out! scary stuff...but think i'm gonna do a jiansheng - he was tellin me his shoulder hurt sometime last year and so instead of resting and stuff he trained through his injury and made his shoulder stronger to handle larger burdens. thats gonna be me this time ;) yupz...too close to race - can't afford to lose anymore time on unnecessary stoppages like silly shoulder injuries =P
okaez...paddling at 7 which means i need to be up at like 6! which leaves under 5 hours of sleep left =P
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